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Alessandra
Essa.Les.
Apathetic (in a way). Insomniac. Fascinated by brujeria. Epitomizes procrastination. Hopes for the best, expects the worst. Cynical. Empathetic. Introvert. Obstructionist. Inconspicuous. Imaginative. Ambiguous. Passive-Aggressive.


Melancholic. Pessimist. Eloquent. Critical. Dense. Euphuist. Loquacious. Pompous. Shrewd. Walking Paradox.

The world is full of obvious things which nobody by any chance ever observes.
- The Curious Incident of the dog in the night-time, Mark Haddon (Christopher)

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When it comes down to it,
I let them think what they want.
If they care enough to bother with what I do,
then I'm already better than them anyways.
- Marilyn Monroe

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I was born with an enormous need for affection, and a terrible need to give it.
- Audrey Hepburn

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The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple.
- Oscar Wilde

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I do not want people to be very agreeable, as it saves me the trouble of liking them a great deal.
- Jane Austen

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bonjour. je m'apelle essa :D

one week of pure torture is finally over :D

GOD IS GOOD.

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tonight is my night. It's time for me to unwind and let loose. Thank heavens.

I'm with queenie right now at netopia. We're indulging in these websites. We might watch "Before Sunset" I wanna watch it (: Ethan Hawke's movies are always amazing romances ;p I loved "Reality Bites" *sigh* I'm so inlove with Ethan Hawke :D

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I'm not gonna go home tonight...I'm staying over at lola's. Yeah. It's drei's birthday. I love that dork :D so I'm staying over tonight. Tomorrow is training for our fucking intramurals. DAMN. ugh. My body is gonna get some major BEATING. uech. phew!

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I'm meeting atc ce tonight. Gudlak nalang. haha, sophisticated ass shit. We're gonna have dinner at dencios. Yeah. Food. nyahaha.

happy birthday to Jhay-be! We love you bitch :D

Tangina lang ang masasabi ko tungkol sa tanginang exams na yan. fuckers. Ah, I'm failing Food Technology.

Wow, I haven't blogged for quite some time. Hm, update! ü

Well, as usual, OB stinks. We don't have a fucking semestral break *frustrated* ehrr... bitch talaga si Preciosa! I want her KILLED. Most probably serves her right, right? rawr.

It was Nikki's bday yesterday [happy birthday! <3]>White Chicks er, ok lang (: Not as funny as I expected but...It was definitely worth it as well. I haven't been able to go out with them..so yeah, it was fun. I was with Maria, Nik, Kei, and Shar...but we had to meet up with Eric, Maria's boyfriend, and his kada. They all seemed pretty nice and warm last night. Not their usual "Eric-ano-ba-bilisan-mo-na-nakakabanas-na look" Nice, nice (:

I slept at 4a nah so I got to school a little drowsy. AYOS! hehe, It was ok though..I wore my alpha uniform ;p tihihi, astig.

*BTW, an hirap ni Keiko gisingin. TANGINA BATUGAN.

Training was fun today (: It always is...except when the offciers make you answer really random questions like "who has the sexiest body among the male cat offciers?" haha, That's embarrassing. hehe. Ohwell. We did drills with the rifle today..heavy as hell, but I like it (:

I hung out and had fun with Ma'am Bunsoy, Ma'am Gallardo, Ma'am Donato, Ma'am Concepcion, Sir Dellosa, Sir Batulan, Sir Pascual, Sir Garcia, Robin, and Sir Garcia, Rolan. astig. haha. an saya nila kausap :P nyeheh, we ordered mikki d's. Laugh trip :D Me and Ate Jae had an arguement infront of My officers. Sir Pascual loved it. HAHA!

anyways, I'm at area and my time is cut short. :D later.

C/o heaven

Dear Person,

I want to apologize for whatever pain I have inflicted on you. I know that this letter cannot compensate for whatever wrong I have done unto you but I am not perfect nor am I close to perfection and I hope you can understand that.

I have done a lot of wrong and I have committed a lot of mistakes, but none of them I regret. One of the mistakes that I am happy I committed was probably tollerating you for all these years. We haven’t exactly been the best of friends but we came pretty close. I know that I can not compete with *name here* nor do I stand a chance, but think of it this way, when all is said and done between the both of you, you can always find me.

We haven’t been in good terms lately and it just kills me to see you happy with them while with me, you are suffering. Though I understand… I know that I can sometimes be a pain and seem bias to *name here* but you have to know that I am not. You are both special people that in one point or another have made me who I am today; I owe you my life.

Being close to *name here* and being close to you doesn’t change the fact that I love both of you dearly. And no matter what hardships and trials we have and are going to go through, I will always be there by your side.

You might not believe me or you might think of what I am saying as “Another one of my crap-and-bull stories” but in the end… You’ll see what I am talking about.

I know I don’t say this much… but I love you… <3



Yours Truly,
Alessandra Martinez
Pamandanan
“Les, Essa”


The world works in such a way we cannot understand nor predict it, but in the end, it all sums up to one thing...

Beneath the fun and the excitement that life can bring, life can be totally depressing.

I just finished reading The Final Book for Carly Phillip's series, The Bachelor, The Playboy, and The Heartbreaker. It was really sweet; The eldest Chandler man was definitely the most seducing ;p I love the way he charms his way into everything. I applaud Carly Phillips [a.k.a. Karen Drogin to her first book, The Right Choice]. Now my next target is Under the Boardwalk by Carly Phillips and The Bachelor Boys by Kate Saunders. Hm, reflect on these sweet romance novels [my sister calls em soft porn. haha!]

The Chandler Men made me think. Are there really such perfect men who REFUSE to get all the attention from EVERY single chick on town? That they ONLY have eyes for their new brides? WOW, such sweetness and loyalty sends shivers up and down my spine!

Roman Chandler, the youngest Chandler man, is most definitely "The Ultimate Bachelor" though he managed to find solace in "The One Who Got Away", Charlotte Bronson, a highschool fling.

Rick Chandler, the middle child, was the towns "Hottest Playboy" he focused on fooling around and enjoying his bachelor and single life, til he finds the young and beautiful Kendall Sutton, who too, never wants to get hitched. She seemed like the perfect girl for Young and handsome Cop, Rick Chandler. They make a charade to make the small town, Yorkshire Falls, bachelorettes stop running after Rick, but during the Charade, Flames develop between the two singles.

Chase Chandler, was the father figure for his 2 younger siblings. When his father died, he suceeded his father with the family bussiness and with raising his younger siblings. But now that his little brothers have families of their own, it's time for Chase to follow his dreams and ambitons. He promised himself to start pursuing his dreams the night he got out of Yorkshire Falls. And to his surprise, bar hopping ended up in a one-night stand with the hotest girl in town; who also happens to be the Senator's adopted daughter, Sloane Carlisle. With what Sloane and Chase thought was a one-night stand to take a break from the life they had often descirbed as a lie, they develop a deep longing and security with each other.

These are the kind of men every sane girl would want to date. But are they real? Can there actually be real "Chandler" men? I don't think so.

WEDNESDAY: had our field trip to INTRAMUROS.. korny. haha. We went to the National Museum again and the Lights and Sounds. Yun. funny kasi Melissa introduced herself to our YOUNG tour guide! haha.

FRIDAY: Went to Arvin's 15th bday party. [happy birthday vin!! ;ub yu boi ;p] We ate at their Restaurant, Piazza, and then headed to Vin's house for some basketball and tekken :D Edge arrived LATE. haha.

SATURDAY: Skipped training. Went to see Drei, Ate joyce, Rica, Mickey, Lola, Lolo, Tito Mike, and Tita Rara :D FUN!! We went to rockwell to meet up with ate joyce and rica tas we hung out lang. Me and drei went to fully booked and both WANT the same book, The Bachelor Boys by Kate Saunders. Went home at 3a na ;p

wow. tagal ko din di nag blog :P

I got to play the sims 2! yahaha. nice, nice :D

I just finished reading "The Bourne Ultimatum" by Robert Ludlum. It's so nice! Read it :D

Training was ok; so-so. I have to produce a Log Book for the CAT office by Monday. Hm, I didn't get to buy. NVM, there's always tomorrow [haha, procrastinator :P]. Me and some of the officers were just gossiping about why I entered the COCC. Sir Pascual asked me "Pamandanan, ba't ka sumali?" "Sir, honest answer?" Sir Pascual laughes and said "SIR GO!" hahah! Di noh! :P so I gave him my answer "Sir, may crush kasi ako sa batch nyo...Gusto ko poh ihandle so I joined..Di ko din naman sha mahahandle! American citizen. haha, pero ngayon gustp ko na talaga maging officer." Tawa naman si Sir Pascual! Yup, I admitted to him that I had a crush on his friend :D Pft, loser.

I got one mistake [ONLY] on our test :P Owyeh men. Haha. I corrected Sir Funtila. Boompshk.

Sige sige, my brother is nagging me. Arrividerci,