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screw the world.
screw everyone.
screw you.

FUCK

my world, is slowly turning its back from me days before my birthday...

wow, isn't it a nice time to say "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!" and those bull? no, pfft.

my life's a wreck, and i think i just realized why.

earlier today i was talking with my bestfriends maria and sam (wow! bestfriend! HAHA) and we were just talking so happily. Until sam placed the phone down and once again, i turn into a fairy god-mother and maria is the damsel in distress. my turn again to help her. PPPPPFFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTT. (its ok maria! i still love you :D). I found out that Miguel, her ex, wanted to get back with her (who wouldn't?!?) AGAIN. OFCOURSE, maria refused because he broke her heart way to many times already ); he's playing with her all over again with a close friend of mine, bianca. WHY?! he's not that attractive, he's not sweet, hes not smart, HE'S NOT EVEN CLOSE TO COMPARING TO MARIA'S STANDARDS! but, yet, he manages to play with my friends. worse, he turns them apart. how brutally idiotic. he's a perfect examply of a "JERK". (if you don't know what it means, go look in the dictionary, dumbass). So, i offerred ONCE AGAIN to hook her up with someone (who i am madly inlove with, henows ;p) but she knows, that well, we both like each other...

THEN SHE FINALLY STATED:

maria: do you know what your problem is bes?
essa: whut?
maria: you're too nice to other people but brutally eveil with yourself!
essa: well, better me hurt than you guys *smirks but tears roll down her eyes.*
maria: you're willing to give up everything for someone you love
essa: and that's wrong, BECAUSE?
maria: even if it means EMOTIONALLY AND PSYCHOLOGICALLY COMITTING SUICIDE!
essa: ok, elaborate on this! everyone hates me! how can you say im TOO nice?
maria: Love kaya kita!
essa: i love you too!! *smiles*
maria: pero...you gave dio up na...you're gonna give him up pa?
essa: sayo naman sha mapupunta eh! stleast i know he's gonna be ok
maria: you show emotion too much! i can see you're hurting...
essa: well, duh!
maria: anyways, you prefer to suffer rather than to change whats happening. its like you're forever lost in a dark hole.
essa: OOOOOOOOWWWWWWWKKKKKKKKKKAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.


we start asking people who they agree with, maria or me (:

10 agreed with maria, including sam
no one agreed with me );

ok, so what?! forgive me, i love too much....

SO NOW THAT I FINALLY LOVE SOMEONE, IM GONNA GIVE HER TO MY BESTFRIEND...
i even told him... "irereto kita kay maria..."
he asked... "bakit di sayo..."
i replied "kasi mas kailangngan ka nya...she needs someone sweet right now...oh di ikaw...kaya kita love eh..."
he smirked and said "wag nalang..."

NAWALA YUN TOPIC BIGLA.

im inlove with someone im not supposed to love... );

school's a wreck for me as well....

FACKERS

oh well, atleast miguel is my classmate na (:

we trip on everyone! HAHA! evil kami!!!

btw, shit happens to me often these days. oh shit, oh well. FUCK.

im not sure what happened to me few days from now...

FUCK

i vaguely remember tha aquaintance...

i met anton ;p
i saw calvin ;p

yeah, ambait nila! HAHA. yun lang...after the aquaintance we headed to timezone and ub...er.. ritchie paul was there...and so was dio...yeah...so...uhuh....

BTW! EVERYONE COMPLIMENTED ME!
they said i look pretty now...but i look STUNNING wehen im fixed up with make up and a dress....

YEAH RIGHT!

not gonna happen in along time again ;p

I MISSED THIS BLOG!!! I FINALLY GET TO BLOG AGAIN

i miss my dudeparey.
i miss my tsongtol.
i miss my chica.
i miss mes amis.
i miss my drayber. (jc! sorry about ur nose! I SWEAR I SWAER! haha)
i miss my tiddy burr. (niko, you better not, not be the one hah!)
i miss my dud. (aj! come to ob uliiit!)
i miss my chrissy. (christopher! HAAY NAKO. kelan ka bibisita? aymisyu dude!)
i miss getting to sleep til 4in the afternoon.
i miss sleeping at 7a.
i miss everyone.
i miss everything.

BTW, ang corny nun aquaintance party! PFFFTTTT. asswipes. and such a lame excuse as well. UGH. yeah, whatever. Why couldn't it just be the frosh's and jr's? i miss dudeparey na... he's just *sigh* soo... FIT TO BE WITH ME. oh, well. FACKERS. LIFE SUCKS

moving on,

ok na kme, i mean me and cla maria and me and cla bianca. they're actually nice :p (wow, i said that! :D)hahaha, im talking to KC right now nga eh! (yes, yes, you see? im noce too! HAHA) yeah...we all had to talk with mrs.duran

FUCK

You know what she said...? and i quote "you know ms.pamandanan if i was your age i wouldn't like you too..." OUCH! hahah, even she hates me ;/ ah shit. oh well. nothing to say to that beetch. she also said that "...you know why...? its because you're very intimidating..." yeah, WOW. "...its the way you move, and act and talk and dress up! who dresses in all black and walks like she has no poise...?..." ay, ma'am ako pa! so what if i like the color black? "...and your eyes! they're so mysterious and deep and emotionless! plus you can look at a person straight at the eye and not feel anything...not anger or be scared or hatred...well it doesn't show anyway...it's like you can read their minds...and the person you're talking too wouldn't even know if you're already lying to them..." YAY! that was a compliment for me (: my eyes are nice! HAHA. anyways, ma'am, i have feeling naman poh! im not emotionless! SOBRA NA YUN EH!

OK, AMINAN NA. sa conference room (:

Ms. Soqueno: who here is mad at alessa?
*everybody raises their hands. i just smirk and look down...*
Ms. Soqueno: who here is afraid of alessa?
*everybody again raises their hands. i smirk again*
* mrs. duran enters the room*
Mrs. duran: who here is afraid of ms. pamandanan?
*everyone did nothing. i smirked and then grinned and sai*
me: PFFFFFFFTTTTTTTT. just 4minutes ago you admitted that you were, mad and afraid of me!
mrs. duran: walang aminan ah? sige, we'll do it the hard way!
*CUT*

HAHA. scary shit...so yeah (:

just some random stuff.

1. Im not sure if i can forgive kate...
2. Na hold-up si migs!! (yes, a group of dudes, asked for his cel...may knife pa talag! he didn't know what to do...aww...)
3. The aquaintance party is tomorrow, and im not excited.
4. i miss my dudeparey and tsongtol!
5. my boi is so hott hott hott hott hott hott hott.

NIKO!, so so wrong :D

im out.

WOW... i now have no female friends... PFFFFTTTTTTTTTT.

Friday:

my life is REALLY REALLY REALLY screwed... pfft, ate jae told my class adviser whats going on in my life... EVERYTHINGS ALL SCREWED. im gonna be in another section AGAIN. tsssk... though i really really hope its gonna be F. MY GOD. everything happened that night... friendships were tested, loyalties were passed... my mind is still a little foggy of what has just happened... though im sure i lost 2 of my bestfriends whom i swore i will keep on forgiving... Out of 6 friends, none of them stuck to the true meaning of the word "friend"

FRIEND- a single soul dwelling in 2 bodies.

I still can't piece together what really had happened, but whatever it is, im sure it WILL last a long time... no one really wants to say sorry and all... and i shouldn't! ITS NOT MY FAULT. Here's what i have so far...

2:00p:
ate jae went to my classroom and explained to the teacher everything... Ok so i got called out, and then reena got called out... spent an hour talking about it, then finally decided for me to switch sections...

3:00p:
got dismissed... AJ arrived! (aylabsyu and aymisyu dude! ;p) and then we talked for awhile and stuff...and then we finally decided to go up to the others even if they were still in class (:

3:30p:
we saw kate... pfftt...

4:00p:
def were dismissed...kate decided to stay with them. And it didn't bother me... well it did! I just hid it...

4:25p:
i was with niko martinez, allan wu, allan trinidad and some other guys... we were just goofing off. Then kate talked to me and said she didn't want to head home with me, my sister, my brother, and her sister. Ok, again it bothered me but i just let her her be... after all, they havent seen each other for a long time. So, we left.

7:00p:
Bien called our house, said that she has no idea where kate is and then she's all alone with no one to talk to standing at the gates of ob...OFCOURSE WE TOLD HER TO HEAD HERE!

7:30p:
bien just got here and we still have no idea where kate and the others are...

8:30p:
We already went to eastwood thinking they might be there since they told us we're gonna go at 7:30.

9:45p:
Clark, Noel, Miguel, Chaz and (other friend, i forgot his name, SORRY) arrived.

10:30p:
still not in eastwood and my dad called my cell to see if we were in the movie house already, when he found out that we weren't he demanded we went home.

10:45:
we went to area 51... then things got out of hand...KATE'S RENTS FOUND OUT SHE WAS MISSING.

11:00p:
everyone got into trouble and we finally got to contact them! Kate was crying her head off screaming at me, Maryrose was screaming at me and their exact words were... "Putangina es! Bat mo hinayaan na manyari to?!?" AKO PA MALI? fuck them.

11:30p:
ate jae and miggy fetched kate at eastwood. (NOTE: KAHIT PINAGALITAN NA KO NAN RENTS NI KATE, AT GALIT NA KO SAKANILANG LAHAT! EH AKO PA ANG NAKAHANAP NAN WAY PARA MAKA UWI SI KATE.) and kate's parent's arrived...

12:00p:
Kate arrived... everything was now, OK.


BUT I AM STILL MAD AT THEM. EXPECT LESS FROM ME, BITCHES.

Saturday:

I asked drei to talk to them since i didn't wanna... clark was the only person i spoke to that day.. maybe cause sila nikko was still asleep and clark's phone was the only one that ringed...

I had a new piercing...

We went to tita ras' bday party. I saw cla jc, trisha, ate paula, rongie, ate laura and moti.


Pretty much it.



*essa myspace! hahaha =p
sharah...ok...

AT APPROXIMATELY 7:54A TODAY, TUESDAY, 06 15 04, MY LIFE HAS ENDED.

FUCKERS.

I hate ob! BLAH, ok, i hate school itself. but ob sucks more. HAHA! anyways, uhm. we had an assembly at the quad at 8:15 then we went straight to mass til 12 ;p LUNCH KAGAD! nyahahah. im in 1-A. fuckers. kay soqueno! notorious daw kc ako eh! YEAH RIGHT. Ive been transferred to 3 sections today! HAHA, ayaw tlga maging a! First it was a then i place myself in f, thankyouverymuch for being so gullible, maam! (:, then a teacher wanted me for e a student so they got me into G a new section thats gonna start all cause of me! (WOW, HONORED!) tas bogla ba nman CLINAM AKO NI SOQUENO! bitch. ARGH. My friends are all in F, D, E tas ako A! tas afternoon student pa nman ako dati! I want to go back to f. its been my section since, basta! before! HAHA.

BTW, i saw some of my friends i didnt see nun summer ulit! WOOPIEE for moi (:

Calvin was there! haha and so was mike and charles and john...the ever so present nikologugulo!, jan patrick, francis and blah.... (haha! PUROS BOYS! tsktsk.) Lenard wasnt there though! and chris.... MISS KO NA CLA! humph. syang! haaaaaaaaay nako. OHMYGALLYGAD.

JUST FOR THE RECORD, "HE" was looking so HOTT today! HUMPH he's so close to perfection i could just kiss him (: (will, sound like a familiar line...? HAHA! yes, i got it from your status!) He's 3-g room 504 :D HAHA!

btw, everyone seems to love this question...

*may bf ka ba ulit? hah? kasi yun mga surveys mo! prang meron!-carlos
carlos... bulung ko sayo mamaya kun meron! nyahaha. ;p Heaven knows, i could just be inlove with someone i know loves me back :D and who knows? HE MIGHT BE COURTING ME ALREADY! so... SECRET. (nyahaha, corny and childlike answer!) uhgm uhm..i'll give you a clue... HE'S MY MALE COUNTERPART. nyahahaha. ;p (i bet you know na kun cno!)

WOW, hell starts tomorrow. FUCK.

I do not want to go to school yet. ARGH. fucker. Though i am excited to see mes amis/ mis amigos that i wasn't able to get to see this summer. And i am excited on meeting new people. That is, if they can handle me *evil laugh*. Though my siblings think/ reckon i get to be in ms. suqueno's class. MWAHAHAHAHA a new teacher to torture.

Sections get posted up today though im not sure if i want to check my sections already or just wait til tomorrow. Maybe i'll check tomorrow...BUT I AM CURIOUS WHAT SECTION I'LL BE AND WHERE MY FRIENDS WILL. ;p I hope we do not get seperated.

I'll blog back later. Im still half asleep. ;p

YAY! thanks for the update pakner!

The calling's new album is out! CANT WAIT CANT WAIT CANT WAIT to get one (: *evil laugh*




Jai: Culture Vulture


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whoa! wierd. hehe. im nto sure but i like a guy who has aesthetics ;p
ohwell i guess they know all to well. (:

Ive got some new icons ;p

thanks to danradclife.com





thanks to rina for these beautiful emma ones.




wow, she's missing a tooth.

check the others:

emma watson avatar 1

emma watson avatar 2

Im not a hater. Im just not a fan. Ok, so im annoyed by her. Oh well, she's still a great actress though. Though im still annoyed. Maybe the fact that she dated tom and is dating dan bothered me.

Just hate.


WTF? argh.

Here are some pix of them holding hands, ugh.

dan radcliffe and emma watson 1

dan radcliffe and emma watson 2

rupert grint 1

I'll post some up later. and btw, un mga kwestyuns di ko pa ma post na cra eadd ko eh. im gonna check pa later kun wla na yun error. FUCKER tong pc na toh eh.

Isn't it funny?

How people find joy in making other people's life miserable...
How we can easily say "i love you" to a person and then just leave them hanging when we fully gain they're love ..
How we are able to tell people we won't hurt them yet end up being the cause of their pain and misery?
How we give our eveything until we have nothing more to give and to offer to people who don't even know we exist...
How other people are too dense to notice our love for them...
How the world works in such a way we become cynical about it...
How "i love you" was often told to be a two-way thing when we are able to love others w/o them knowing...
How teens and kids become rebels because they're cynical of the people surrounding them...
How teens often dream big yet aren't given the chance to reach it because fate only took them so far that they didn't think they could do it and didn't take that leap of faith because they didn't know that the next big step is up to them to take and risk it...
How often kids say they live in a dream...
How kids want to be but a distant memory...



No, its not funny...it hurts this is just something i learned from the people surrounding me...

Remember, PAIN is INEVITABLE, SUFFERING is OPTIONAL

Yay new template! And I made it ;p

Ok so it was supposedly a Jason Mraz Layout but I came across Chad Michael Murray and WOW. HE'S SO HOTT. haha ;p This is just a simple one! Totally Gonna Change soon. Or edit it ;p anyways this one is ABSOLUTELY TEMPORARY (:

Anyways i found some icons and totally edited it! They're Jason Mraz ofcourse ;p I love that man!







Anyways, the others are here:

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And some blends that i edited as well (I DID NOT MAKE THESE! I JUST EDITED THEM.)

John Mayer

Jason Mraz

HOW LOW CAN SOME PEOPLE GET?

When you start to copy everything i do. YOU CAN NO LONGER SINK ANY MORE DEEP. Its one thing to copy my templates, my posts, my ideas but to copy EVERYTHING? INCLUDING MY TAGBOARD? hahaha! you have absolutely no idea what you're gonna go through. Ive been so patient. I gave you a template. I gave you ideas. I offerred you help. 5 times i have been patient with this, this unoriginality. But when you start claiming my friends? THAT'S DIFFERENT. I may be a loner, geek, nerd, freak, psycho, dork and whatever. BUT I AT LEAST HAVE FRIENDS. YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU HAVE JUST DONE. You have just crossed my TRESHOLD. I repeat, you have no IDEA what I am CAPABLE of. This is different. IF THERES ONE THING I HATE AND (AND THIS IS THE NTH TIME I HAVE MENTIONED IT) IT'S PLAGIARISTS, COPYCATS, POSERS AND PEOPLE WITH ABSOLUTELY NO ORIGINALITY. And to call me your friend? HAHA. You seriously have a problem. There are 2 kinds of people in this world:

1. The people who have ORIGINALITY.

2. And the people who are POSERS and can never ever achieve anything.

Guess who you are there?

Not to be conceited, i was just stating a fact. I am too nice to not put your name here. You know who you are. HAHA. Get a life.

AND BESIDES, YOU WANT MY LIFE SO BAD? YOU ENVY ME SO BAD? YOU THINK I HAVE A GOOD LIFE? HEY, LADY, IT AINT NO WALK IN THE PARK. MY LIFE SUCKS, YOU WANT IT? I'LL GIVE YOU A PERFECT EXAMPLE OF HOW MY LIFE SUCKS, JUST NAME IT. ITS AS GOOD AS DONE.


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* hi! ang cute ko! -cra ulo
Mike! asa ka muna tsong! ahaha

* DIODIODIO!!!
mike? ahaha.

* ULOL KA! -cra ulo
cra ulo! ahhaha. alam ko (:

* CRA ULO! MISS NA KITA. MISS MA BA AKU?
cra ulo! missnadenkita!

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You are a narrative writer. Usually a writer of
stories rather than poetry, you grew up reading
Shakespeare's less popular and heard of
plays--like King Lear or the Henry series. Your
writing contains a certain order and
organization--be it chronological or otherwise.
If you are to write poetry, it has to convey a
logical (or perhaps unreal) story with some
sort of order behind it.


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roxanne, here's that example...

awus in the net den drei askd me who belle wuz...i showed her belle's pic den ate mya walked in on the room.. she started saying sum things i cud barely make out....then my dad askd me to do sumthing outside. Then ate mya went out and strted screaming like im this psycho with a big dream. She called me pathetic,stupid,pakialamera,gago,tarantado...an skit. i need to talk to kate... IM too scared to go out though. I just dont want to get screamed at..and coming from ate mya one of the sisters i love the most.....It hurts... I wanna stop this shit. I wanna die right now..The minute i get a knife mag slaslash tlga ako. I need to talk to kate bad! This sucks..ayoko nah.. why me? why always me? I need to talk to someone. Real bad. Did i do anything wrong? she said just one more time and then she's gonna tell dad and mom that i cut,i smoke,i drink... everything! It sycks real bad... why does she have to be so mean? She said she doesnt mess with my life so i shouldnt mess with her. I really idnt mean to. I just wanted to show drei. Why me? God this sucks... Im not that strong im too young to go through this. The tears keep streaming down my face. I wanna stop it.. but i cant... She's so mean. Why me? Im serious. Lage nalang ako. An skit na. Hindi ko na kya. Seryosohan na toh. Drei's asleep so i cant talk to her.. i dont want to go out coz ate mya's there..i cant talk to ate blu. Lahat hindi ko kya. Please diyos ko poh.. my god..help me! hindi ko na toh kya...ayoko nah.. sana mawalan na ko ng isip at mag pakamatay na kow. The first chance i get. Magpapakamatay ako. Ayoko na. I cant take this. I need the strength. Summer pa naman. Im gonna have to spend a lot of time with them. I cant take it. My mind is all fogged up. The truth fuckin hurts... i..im so lost...everyone's so strange. I am now emily. A description of teenage angst.Sabi pa nga ni ate mya na wala na daw sya repeto sa mga kaibigan ko... Di nya nman cla kailangan damayin dba? di naman dba? I did everything freely. I chose to do it. No one ever forced me to cut class. To smoke. It was all in me. No ifs no buts..just me. KATE AND BES I NEED YOU BOTH NOW. i knw you hav no respect of me as well. Ayoko nah. This sucks. I hat my life. I hate it. Im happy for my friends. They hve great lives...but why me? out of all the people in the world,why me? I miss being a kid. So problem-free. No thing to worry about and you're placed on a pedestal where everyone is supposed to praise you. My sister said that she had her fortune token and it said "The person who will destroy her life is a sister of hers" she said at this point.. she thinks its me. cause im the only who gets involved in her life. POTAH. Ako nalang nakikita na mali. Lagi nlng.di lng d2 sa bahay. Gagu daw ako...tsismosa... tarantado...sinungaling, ahhh. bkit ako? why me? do i deserver this? not really...right? then why me? Is this my rise and fall? i never rose though. Gusto ko na mawala. Pra alam nila kun ano yun feeling pag wala ako. wala na yun uto-uto nilang kapatid. baka sakali ma tauhan pa sla at makita nla kung ganu ko cla ka mahal. Baka sakali gumaan yun luob nila kc patay na ko. La nang inde perpekto sa pamilya. Ako daw and problema ng lhata. Ako nlng ang pampabigat skanila. Ako daw ang nag hohold back kay mommy at daddy. Ayoko nah. Gus2 ko na mamatay. Hindi nila ala. Naka post na sa mind ko lhat ng cnbi nlng mali skin. Yun nlng lage pumapasok sa utak ko. Wla nang masaya or positive thing na nasa utak ko kc pra skin sa tingngin nla ako mali. Wlang tama. Hindi ko na tinutuhan yun mga puri nla skin.. mga lait nlng... Totoo naman diba? mali nlng ako palagi. Ayoko na tlga. Hindi ko nga alam kun pano ako magsosorry sa pinag sasabi nla eh. Si cam na nga lng ksuap ko eh... sa sbrang takot sa gan2... hindi ko tlga makakaya. Ayoko nah...ayoko nah...ayoko nahhh.................



ice_liz89: cammm
ice_liz89: i need to talk to someone
cam_lucky13: why?
ice_liz89: yun ate ko kc eh....an sama sama..la naman akong gnagwang masama
cam_lucky13: may problem ka ba?
ice_liz89: bakit lagi nlng ako?
cam_lucky13: nu sabi sayo?
ice_liz89: gs2 nga ako kausapin ng dady ko kc umiiyak ako kaso mas lalo magagalit skin ate ko
cam_lucky13: pag na dc ako babalik ako ha
ice_liz89: Potangina ko daw...gagu daw ako tarantado pakialamera
ice_liz89: lahat na
cam_lucky13: nu ba gnawa
cam_lucky13: mo
ice_liz89: okbrb
ice_liz89: brb
cam_lucky13: ok
ice_liz89: an sama sama naman kasi
cam_lucky13's status is now "Idle" (3/20/2004 6:35 PM)
ice_liz89: cam......
ice_liz89: an skit!
cam_lucky13: ..
ice_liz89: gusto ko na mamatay
ice_liz89: gs2 ko na magpakamatay
cam_lucky13: nu ba ginawa mo sa ate mo?
ice_liz89: wla.
ice_liz89: kc inutusan ako ni drei tignan yun pic ng friend ng ate ko
ice_liz89: tas nagalit skin te ko kc pinakekeelaman ko daw sya
ice_liz89: eh c drei naman yun tumitinggin ah
ice_liz89: di naman ako hah
cam_lucky13: explain mo nalang
ice_liz89: pro ako prin mali
ice_liz89: ayaw nya mkaki nig
ice_liz89: kanina nya pa ko sinisigawan
ice_liz89: makinig*
ice_liz89: ako nlng lagi mali.
ice_liz89: sya na lng lge tama
ice_liz89: ayoko na cam
cam_lucky13: ganyan lang talaga pag kapatid ang ka away..
ice_liz89: hindi ko naman sya masagot.
ice_liz89: ayoko nman maging disrespekto
ice_liz89: mabuti pa na mawala ako
ice_liz89: pra masabe nila na perfect na yun pamilya
ice_liz89: kc sa tingngin nman nila ako lng inde prepekto sa pamilya
ice_liz89: ako lng yun mali
ice_liz89: lage nlng ako
ice_liz89: cla nlng lge tama.
ice_liz89: ako mali
ice_liz89: gnun plgi
ice_liz89: wla
cam_lucky13: wag mo isipin yan mahal ka rin nun..
ice_liz89: ayoko na
ice_liz89: gus2 ko na mamatay
ice_liz89: sbi nya nga ayaw nya ko makita at makausap
ice_liz89: o makasama
ice_liz89: ako daw mali sa buhay nla
ice_liz89: ako daw ang pampabigat
cam_lucky13: ganyan naman cnasabi ng laht eh.. pero pag nawala mahala ka rin sakanila
ice_liz89: ayoko na maniwala sa sabihan na yun cam.
ice_liz89: di din naman nla 222hanin
ice_liz89: kc pagkataspos nila umiyak pag patay nako...makakalimutan din nla ko.
ice_liz89: gnun nman tlga.
cam_lucky13: ewan ko kung ako rin yan bka d ko rin makaya.. pero minsan pag pinapagalitan din ako naiisip ko rin yan.. pero kalimutan mo nalang
ice_liz89: ang hirap
ice_liz89: evryday nlng pinapagalitan kao
ice_liz89: evbryday nlng mali ako
ice_liz89: habang pinupuri yun mga kapatid ko
ice_liz89: wla na clang cnabi na maganda tungkol skin..pro lait nlng...
ice_liz89: cam..ayoko nah..pano na toh?
ice_liz89: iyak ba kyo pag namatay ako?
cam_lucky13: oo naman
cam_lucky13: at wag na wag mo gagawin yan
ice_liz89: pag napuno ako cam la na ko magagawa eh.
ice_liz89: ang bigat na nang luob kow.
ice_liz89: hindi ko na toh kaya...
ice_liz89: ayoko nah.
ice_liz89: hindi na nga ako makapag dasal nang mabuti sa gabi eh
ice_liz89: dhil kung ano ano na pinagsasabi ko
cam_lucky13: alam mo mahal ka rin nila..
ice_liz89: sana
ice_liz89: feeling ko nga sawa na si lord sa mga problema ko
ice_liz89: ako nlng lge humihingi ng tulong
ice_liz89:
cam_lucky13: bsat mag pray ka nalang
ice_liz89: cam..i gtg..dun lng ako mag mumukmuk sa kwarto ko
ice_liz89: tnx for all ur help

P.S. this post made me cry...to remember everything...i told you...i hate my life...

//EDIT

WOW. haha. im blogging JUST NOW, whaddapack? ahahah. hmm, well my day was pretty much er.. boring?! HELL YEAH. hhahah. i was left home alone for 5hours i think. ok lng. haha. i woke up at 3:30p na tas took a bath mga 7...THEN EAT EAT EAT. ahaha. BABOY AMP! anyways, smoehow i managed to stumble across my blurty ililink ko nlng sha... daming nan yari sa buhay ko na andun... ahaahha... just re pasting past quizzes, (:


You're Emily Strange herself! Way to go, stranger.


What Emily Strange Posse Member Are You?
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Troublemaker Emily


Which Emily Strange are you?
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Anger dominates you, you like to hurt things,
animals, people, yourself? You find no other
way to express yourself then through anger, or
pain. Being alone for you can be a bad thing,
then on the other hand it could be good. Please
don't kill me. (Please Vote)


What Emotion Dominates you?
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Your a Dark Dragon! Ok, yes, not very nice. Your
evil, spiteful, malicious, and jsu darn bad.
You like to see othrs in pain, or cause it. Im
sorry to say, but you scare me. Fly around
somewhere...err, far away.


What elemental dragon are you?
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You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.


What kind of kiss are you?
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You are going to marry Ashton Kutcher. He is kind
and sweet, but pulls a lot of pranks (and
probably quite a few on you too!!)and can
always make you laugh.
Congrats!!


Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (14 choices now!!)
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Fight Club!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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god you dumbass.


What swear word are you?
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cge just check out my other quizzes here

I got this in my friendster.

what is the first thing that comes into mind
when you see these words?

coffee = one of my addictions (:

yellow = a color...pfftt...im THAT pathetic.

pillow = my favorite pillows!

britney = slutALERT

J.Lo = slutALERT again.

pink = ack.my sisters favorite color.

josh hartnett = HOT, noh katie?! ;p

tom welling = SUPERBOI. HOT. SMALLVILE (one of
my favorite shows...)

johny depp = IDOL! woohoo! cap. jack sparrow (:

popcorn = BUTTER. CHEESE. BBQ. YUM.

summer = almost over. ARGH );

winter = SNOW. woohoo. i love snow.

spring = ts...love love is in the air.

autumn = red and orange leaves. SERENDIPITY.

lamer = NO SUCH WORD, IDIOT.

raymond = GAY. but. NICE. and. HOT. lol. ;p i
know a raymond who's gay, nice and FREAKISHLY
hott.

utt = ATE. i hate vj utt.

party = i have to be with my FAVORITE amigos. we
fly solo!

jolin chai = wtf?! whotf?!

memories = (:

sushi = it has to be CALIF MAKI.

neo-prints = ME, KATE, MARIA. JAEMMY. adix, boi.

sorry = a word that often fools me...better
yet... a word that often makes a fool out of
me );

enemy = A LOT.

dog = LOVE THEM.

country = TRAVEL.

love = dudeparey//superman (:

bf/gf's ex = LALALALALALALALALALA.

backstabbers = hate them

sean paul = ACK.

wwe = wrestling~!

jealousy = *thinks of someone*

bed = MY DADS. ahaha. ITS SO COOL.

clubbing = (:

dark angel = ME. haha. demonic saviour (:

thanksgiving = YUM.

aloha = hawaii.

emotion = GREED.ENVY.DEPRESSION.ANGST.ANGRY.
DISAPPOINTED.

hahaha = hahaha to you too

tv = A NECESSITY.

radio = 89.9 88.3 93.1 99.5 97.1.

design = interior.

toilet = bathroom.

eyes = MATTER.

forwarded mails = ANNOYING.

quiz = hahaha, quiz your friends thing!!ü there
was a time wen everyone had one :p


"I choose to love him in silence for in silence i find no rejection,but in silence i risk the chance of having the love i might have gotten..."
*sigh* I have fallen inlove with you...its as simple and as complicated as that...

HOW BORING CAN CI POSSIBLY GET?

I spent the day, SLEEPING. yes, people. I WAS ASLEEP. from 4:30a (that was the time i slept yesterday night...i mean morning.) to 4p this afternoon. SO nothing happened to me today. All i did was watch "even stevens" and then "thats so raven" and then just go online. I took a bath at 6:00p na. HAHA. talk about lazy.

I like the question today. IT WAS ÜBER FUNNY.

*do you write those questions yourself that you SAY people ask
you? parang kase ganon eh....
HAHA. WOW. IM A LOW LIFE. I WROTE ALL THSE QUESTIONS MYSELF. duh, no. i may be a loser. but im not THAT much of a low life...lemme guess who this is, its roxanne. HAHA.

WOW. i watched the poa AGAIN. woohoo im rolling.

AHAHA. date kmi ni kuya jap (: NYERX. ahahaha. anyways yun...punta kami sa shang around 2:30 tas 5 pa yun movie. NYERX. ikot muna kmi with cla ate mya, tuts, ally and tita jael. we went up at 4:20 tas we were the 2nd people sa line :D YAY ;p anywyas even thoguh ive watched it already...it still gives me the shivers!! anywyas, im talking to rina asteeeeeeg kame!!! SOLID!! ahhaahah.

*pwede mo ba post picture moh?
pwede...pro ayoko. ;p

*sexy ka ba?
SOBRA! ahahah. just kiddin ;p NOPE. ahaahah.

*do you like avril lavigne?
NOPE. fucck her.no offense if u like her.

*are u an incubus fan?
yes please (:

*do you like emily strange?
yes din poh. (:

FYI PEOPLE. taken na poh kami ni rina! dba, rina?

SOLID! ;p

I have a new link!! i fixed her template (: sherlyne view nyo blog nya!


HUWOW. p.fiona kailangngan daw kausapin c donkie (STALLION, BABY!) kun isasagut nya c shrek. AHAHAH. CORNY.

donkie made a deal with shrek. donkie will talk to princess fiona but shrek has to buy her food and watch harry potter3 with her and her older brother. HAHA. weh? coirny. HAHA.


how wierd can we get? to use shrek2 as codenames. AWWW, its cute though? right? hehe. anyhows. EVERYBODY IS ASKING NONESENSE. haha. i like it though! i was expecting q's about html and stuff..

*may mga kaaway ka ba sa school nyo?
YES. AHAHAHA. WAR FREAK.

*saan ka nagaaral?
Operation Brotherhood Montessori Center Inc. inshort. THE GAY SCHOOL "OBMCI" ahaha.i love my school though!

*do you watch thas so raven?
yup. ahahaha. jologs akoh eh!


i snagged this off roxanne's blog.

What are you wanted for? by meteoric
Name
Age
Crime	You're a serial killer!
Reward for capture	$789,540
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Are you a God? by Demonac
Name:
God/Goddess type:	God of Death
Worshippers:	Klu Klux Klan
They show devotion by:	Protesting against local by-laws
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

i like the other one! HAHA.

Are you a God? by Demonac
Name:
God/Goddess type:	God of Mercy
Worshippers:	Hackers
They show devotion by:	Reading Harry Potter books
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

If You Became A Music Star... by jump5fan
Name:
Age:
Group Name:	English Torture
First Album:	Blurred Out
First Single:	Baby, I Need You more And More
Chorus To First Single:	Your A Speed Bump On My Road To Life Baby...
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Mors


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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i have 2 answers coz i had 2 CORRECT ANSWERS FOR ONE QUESTION. fuckers.


Hades


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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schizoid


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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i took it the 2nd time coz AGAIN.i had 2 RIGHT answers


schizotypal


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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