Friday, April 30, 2004
TO ALL MY FRIENDS!
1.To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly . The more you chase
it , the more it eludes you. But if you just let
it fly, it will come to you when you least expect
it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts ,
but love's only special when you give it to
someone who is really worth it. So take your time
and choose the best.
2.To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE
Love isn't about becoming somebody
else's "perfect person." It's about finding
someone who helps you become the best person you
can be.
3.To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL
TYPE
Never say "I love you” if you don't care. Never
talk about feelings if they aren't there. Never
touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never
look in the eye when all you do is lie. The
cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let
her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch
her fall and it works both ways...
4.To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED
Love is not about "it's your fault", but "I'm
sorry." Not "where are you", but "I'm right
here." Not "how could you", but "I understand."
Not "I wish you were", but "I'm thankful you
are."
5.To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED
The true measure of compatibility is not the
years spent together but how good you are for
each other.
6.To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as
deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is
not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from
them
7.To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be
consistent but not too persistent, share and
never be unfair, understand and try not to
demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.
8.To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love
happy with someone else but it's more painful to
know that the one you love is unhappy with you.
9.To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO
CONFESS
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It
hurts even more when someone breaks up with you.
But love hurts the most when the person you love
has no idea how you feel.
10.To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING
ON
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone
and fall in love, only to find out in the end
that it was never meant to be and that you have
wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If
he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth
it a year or 10 years from now. Let go.....
11.TO ALL MY FRIENDS.......
My wish for you is a man/women whose love is
honest, strong, mature, never-changing,
uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and
unselfish.
Thursday, April 29, 2004
check out ur
past life here (:
Les- an independent serial killer (:
WHAHAHAH
SWEETNES UP AND DOWN MY SPINE
finally! Erin picked Chad and Chad picked Erin!! So sweet! aww aww aww...ü. For love or money turned out realllllllllllllllllllll nice. I do hope they get married like
trista and ryan from
the bachelorette.
Meanwhile on American Idol,John Stevens was pulled out! What is with people today? First they take out
Jon Peter Lewis then Jeniffer Hudson, Now John Stevens? WTF? Im mad. seriously.
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
New link (: it was requested by my über close friend, gina! (i missho0 muchoz tuff-shortie)
The 3 survey
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1.
2.
3.
I don't get scared! [whahhahah! tapang, tapang!]
THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
1. Gonong
2. Chris
3. Kim
THREE PERSONS (boys!) I LOVE:
1. Mga kafatid ko na lalaki and my futher.
2. Mga ka-barkada ko na Gwapings! [whahah! hanep hanep! 22o ba? ngek!]
3. si cdhiaod [kuha? mga ka-closeko lng may kuha nyan!]
THREE ATTITUDES I HATE:
1. Bossy
2. Flirty
3. Rude
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. Why me?
2. Why is life screwed?
3. how people find pleasure in making other people's lives miserable
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK -- right now:
1. cell phone
2. a big headset
3. COKE
THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
1. typing
2. thinking of what to type
3. texting.
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:(positive)
1. Friendly
2. Approachable
3. loves unconditionally
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:(negative)
1. Judgemental
2. I base a person through first impressions. (INAAYUS KO NA YAN!)
3. i love too much
THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
1. Listen to music a whole day without getting bored
2. Stay online til 3p (haha thats when i wake up) til 7a (when i sleep)
3. Read books more often than not (bookworm!! dork talaga eh!)
THREE PERSONS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
1. me, whahahaha
2. your bestfriend
3. your self
THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
1. KFC
2. MCDO
3. fried chicken and sinigang
THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
1. how to drive
2. how to agree with people.
3. how to STUDY,whaha
THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
1. juice
2. milkshakes
3. coke
IM HOME!!! SWEET HOME!!! (:
Im happy to be home cause i missed the net *babaw ng potah* yet im sad coz i miss bagui already! ): *taina!* seryoso tsong an sya sya! So we went horse back riding..whahah. PRO MASAYA SHA HAH! yun horse ko nag ga-gall0p literal (: Akin daw pinaka mabilis and galing ko daw pumili! anyways i miss my cousins na! specially since i rarely see them.So un la na ko masabi much eh! Yun lng.
Onga pla! check my new pbase,
here
Monday, April 26, 2004
ONGA PALA! pahabol lng (: i met nox donesa's sis here in baguio...si kai.. stig sha..kapwa rocker. whaha (tama ba spelling?) (:
OMG i can't believe i found a net cafe in baguio!! hahah im in baguio right now nasa net cafe called "Got hub" stig!! whahaah anyways an sya nun trip goin here! LAFF TRIP toh tsong!! i'll post pix sa pbase nxt tym kc lng blue tooth d2. JOLOGS. anyways and2 si stichi jae besyd me..la lng..uber xcited nmin mag net eh! anyways. trying to make the best of our time since 30 minutes nlng kmi d2. argh!!! so un sya trip super!! (: nakakapagod un site seeing though Ilan beses na kc nmin nakita...we're always here...did i tell you? anyways i'll try posting a longer blog next time, i'll try to make this as long as possible. So yesterday was SUPERB, uber!!! me, sitchi,satchi and dude slept dun sa BIG bed whahaha i'll show u how big nxt tym (: TAS yosi yosi sa roof. hush hush hah! anyways we slept really late and my friggin dad woke us up at 8a we were like wtf dad? and he said we were gon leave in 30minutes! AHHHHHHHHH kain and ligo agad! potah...
ah shit! i gotta go :|
Sunday, April 25, 2004
I love the wish site here it goes (:
pick a number between 2 through 9... (2)
another number...(2)
enter the name of a member of the opposite sex (or same sex if you're gay)...(dio)
anyone's name (remember you have to know them)...(maria,kate,nikko)
another member of the opposite sex...(richard)
Now, gimmie four song titles...(you're a god,everything you want,wherever you will go,you and i both)
Make a wish...(i wish to have more wishes and for all my wishes to come true)
(pop-ups)
admit it you're hot for dio
You actually like richard but there are not sparks whatsoever
you care a lot about maria
kate knows you better than yourself
nikko is your lucky star
The song you're a god reminds you of or your relationshipt with dio
everything you want is the song for richard
wherever you will go is whats on your mind
you and i both describes how you feel about life
TAKE THE QUIZ ITS ON MY LINKS!!! (:
Hey uploaded some new pics on
insanely_wierd
its on essa and pamilya (: *heh*
We're gon go to baguio on a few hours time!! *BOO-YAHHHHHH* just finished packing since i stayed up til 7a again today! had to baby sit my niece, ally since she woke up at 6a and since i was up. MY MOM VOLUNTEERED me. haha, lab0 nga eh!! anyways. I watched ZOOLANDER and remembered how i was a big ZOOLANDER fan! lol. Anyways met some new friends again thanks to
carla [hi lisa (:] and ofcourse the people i met earlier this week and last. ( *waves hello to guido,pagu,enrico,iana,alexa,migi,so on...* grabe (: i met a lot of cool people. haha. anyhooz. Im gon go dl sum songs (:
Saturday, April 24, 2004
Some lyrics that remind me of myself.
Absolutely-Nine days
If I am-Nine days
Im Just A Kid-Simple Plan
haaaaayyyy...such alazy saturday afternoon. How i wish there was a gimmik today!
I slept at 7a this morning haha. I slept after eating breakfast (: Woke up at 4:30p in the afternoon, LITERALLY. So the first thing i did was on the PC haha and call bes ofcourse (: Yeah, chat away, AGAIN. hah.
Bes had to go so it was just me and my beautiful PC again (: *sigh ILOVEYOU sigh* hehe. A girl who's inlove with her pc. wierd,eh? haha (: I talked to
ate jae's ex Mike Chua. La lng.. So yeah. That's my day, borinh,eh?
Im planning on changing my template.
Friday, April 23, 2004
Snagged this out of
pakner's friendster (:
1. Name: essa (:
2. do you know
what “supercalifragilisticexpialidocious” means?
yeah..it means "ThisQuestionIsSoFuccdUp"
3. would you like to dye your hair pink?
hmmm... i'll pass.
4. do you adore hilary duff? Hell no.
5. do you think tom welling is cute?
*smile* yeah!! (:
6. are you a demon set to destroy earth?
Im no demon. Im Satan's female counter part (:
7. what is your favorite expression? Fucc
of.
8. are you evil by nature? Nah...It's a
thing that grows on you. But I was born as
Satan's double, so i guess yeah.
9. what color is your blood? BLACK. (:
10. do you like peanut butter? yup yup. :)
11. have you kissed anybody before? ofcourse.
12. do you kiss and tell? Hell no.
13. are you always like this? what wasted? I
ALWAYS LOOK WASTED.But i'm not always wasted.
14. if you’re wondering about the number
above, I mean, do you always answer questions
with questions? no.
15. do you think I’m psychic? Nah. Chamba
lng.
16. do you think a real person wrote this? No
17. are you fond of tacos? not much. But i
love eating (:
18. do you write novels? yes. DORK, huh?
19. do you know anybody who does? yep.
20. do you have a drop of artist’s blood? Yes
21. do you like eerie noises at dark?
No0o0o0o0o. |:
22. would you like to hug a teddy bear? N0.
23. do you think others would answer this
survey? yeah. weird, yet interesting. :)
24. have you said ‘I love you’ to anyone?
yeah.
25. how many crushes do you have? heck, a
lot.
26. do you drool? Or only your dog? just my
dog. (:
27. do you even have a dog? wuddyou cre?
28. do you like cats? Nah. They look like
Micaeh Jackson. I mean, SERIOUSLY.
29. have you poured boiling hot water on a
cat? Yes. haha
30. did you have a cousin who did the above?
N0.
31. are you short [below 5’5”]? yeah. dont
rub it in.
32. when was your last birthday? July 1 2003
33. would you like to have long hair? [below
your waist] naaaah.
34. do you have a cousin named frank? nope.
35. do you have a brother named mark? nuh-uh.
36. do you have a dog named peter?
ohhhhkaaaaay. what kind of questions are these
exactly?
37. do you like Bethlehem? Yes.
38. have you been to rome? no. pakshit.
39. you have stinky feet. i do not!
40. did you answer or comment on # 39? yeah.
41. did you know you weren’t supposed to?
no, so sue me.
42. are you married? nope.
43. are you single? yeah.
44. do you like cookies with lots of
chocolate chips? yup yup.
45. do you bake? ha. i suck at baking.
46. do you know anybody who likes the
culinary arts? yeah.
47. do you watch cartoons? yeah.
48. are you a mammal? doi.
49. do you think cold blooded animals
literally have cold blood? probably.
50. are you weird and do you think I am? i
dont think. i know.
GimikGimikGimik!!! (:
It was gimmik night again tonight. Hehe, It was really fun (: *HOORAY* *BOO-YAHHH* whahaha. God it was fun (: I got there a lil late though. Nah..not really. Nikko,Calvin,John and Chris picked me up at GH.. hahah fun ride going to QC. We looked like crazy, psychotic drunk kids on the road and people were giving us wierd stares. I was riding with Chris and his driver while John, Calvin and Nikko on the other car [Note: Chris made me memorize John's plate number]. We got there around 6:30p and Laverne, Vivo, Clark, Cam, Kei, Jhay, Bes, Kuri, Lester, Ayrton and Ferdi were there already. We got introduced to each other and unfortunately Laverne had to go. Hm, more blah's and more blah's then acted like total moronic kids swinging in the swings (; [Nikko couldn't fit in one of the swings *EVIL LAUGH* haha. ][Oh and we were having this convoe about dio. Si nikko as usual himirit kya tinapunan ko ng rootbeer! damay pa si Calvin (: heehee..I said sorry naman eh! *rolls eyes*]. At around 7p Nikko and the others cept for the girls [excluding me and maria (: ONE OF THE GUYS. WHAHA] and the dude's from Claret started to eat. At around 7:30p The beer came (: haha. Inuman toh tsong! *drunken laugh*. Blah's and blah's some more til Vivo and Clark's other friends arrived at around 8p. They were really quiet, with the exception of Clark and Vivo. At around 9p things got hectic. Hectic, yet fun (: . Hahah. The most loyal game ofcourse was played [spin the bottle!!!] and some more of crazy dancing and shit like that. At around 10. The dudes from Claret left and Me and Nikki started to play Badminton [damn Nikko! Pinagod mo ko tsong (:] And then the montessorians and Nikko [haha...la lng] got really tired and WASTED. haha. Jhay-be left at around 10:30p and we followed at 11p. [Thx for the ride KURI!!!! and kate, haha. I was at Maria's again (:] I got home at 12a na...I got hungry again after eating with Maria. Hm..So waited for about an hour and a half for my sitchi to get off the pc and then bogged (: AND OHYEAH. IM TALKING TO NIKKO RIGHT NOW. HE SAYS HELLO, TO THE PEOPLE HE KNOWS (:
Thursday, April 22, 2004
@ spell your name backwards: asseL
@ have you ever had a song written about you: yes. I wrote it. (:
@ what song makes you cry: I don't cry with songs..Well not recently (:
@ what song makes you happy: a lot, a lot.
@ what do you listen to before you go to sleep: I listen to my cd's, mp3s, kazaa downloads, blah.
@ height: somewhere in between 5'2, 5'3, 5'4
@ hair color: brown
@ piercings: 5!! (:
@ tattoos: nada.
Right Now . . .
@ what song are you listening to: Every other time-LFO [haha (: old sch]
@ what taste is in your mouth?: Mango *yum*
@ whats the weather like?: Damn hott.
@ how are you?: I'm okay.
@ get motion sickness?: No! Travelling is one of the best essences of life (:
@ have a bad habit?: YES. I'm a pessimist.
@ get along with your parents?: Hell no.
@ boyfriend/girlfriend: Nope.
@ have a current crush: Yup. (:
@ have a big regret: No.Because of my past, I walk before my future.
Favorite . . .
@ Tv show: F.R.I.E.N.D.S, Charmed, American Idol, World Idol, Spongebob (: [patrick!!], As told by Ginger, Arnold, MTV, trl, Dismissed, Jackass, Punk`d, Becoming, Making the video, CRIBS, 8 simple rules on dating my teenage daughter, Whose line is it anyways?, Lizzie McGuire, The Simpsons, HBO, Star movies, Roswell, Boy meets world, Smallville, CSI, That 70's shows, For love of money, For love or money II, The bachelor, The bachelor II, The bachelor III, The bachelorette,Temptation island, Love shack, What i like about you, Kids say the darndest things, The Drew Carey show, The Tom Green show, Frasier, 7th heaven, Gilmore girls, and hell, a lot more!
@ book: Hp series, lotr series, chicken soup coll., tasteberry tales coll., the bachelor, the playboy, the heartbreaker, like water for chocolate, 5 people you meet in heaven, Angels and Demons, DaVinci code, can you keep a secret?, Purpose driven Life, Scarlet Letter, The Alchemist, Veronika decides to die, Perfect Strangers, Archie Comics, Marvel and DC Comics, Tuesdays with morrie, Artemis Fowl, By the river Piedra, I sat down and wept, Books by Paolo Coelho, Dan Brown, Carly Phillips and Mitch Albom.And hell, a lot more!
@ non alchohol drink: Coke, h2o, Shakes, Juice.
@ alchohol drink: vodka.
@ things to do on the weekend: GO OUT GO OUT GO OUT.... SLEEP.
Have You Ever . . .
@ broken the law: Yea
@ ran away from home: Considered.
@ snuck out of the house: always (:
@ ever gone skinny dipping: Don't want to.
@ made a prank phone call: Yes! haha (;
@ tipped over a portapotty: a what?
@ use your parents credit card: No.
@ skipped school before: Yeah! Always (:
@ fell asleep in the shower/bath: Once. I spent an hour there. In a swimming pool actually (:
@ been in a school play: Yup.
@ had a boyfriend/girlfriend: Yes.
@ had children: No.
@ been in love: Damn Yeah.
@ have a hard time getting over someone: Yes..
@ been hurt?: *sigh* Yes.
@ gone out with someone you only knew for 3 days: Nah.
Random . . .
@ have a job: No.
@ your cd player has what in it right now: Maroon 5 "Songs about jane", Jason Mraz "Waiting for my rocket to come", John Mayer "Heavier Things", John Mayer "Rooms for squares".
@ if you were a crayon, what color would you be?: BLACK :|
@ what makes you happy?: Some things that im afraid to tell people.
@ the next CD you're going to buy: Don't know yet.
When/What Was the Last . . .
@ you got a real letter: Christmas from my friends (:
@ got an email: NOW (:
@ thing you purchased: Food.
@ Tv program you watched: HBO
@ movie you saw in the theaters: The Passion.
@ kissed & when: My niece,Ally - when she got home.
@ hugged: Allyson - just as she fell asleep
@ song heard: Girl on tv.
@ place you were [ besides home ]: Pearl Drive. - Gimmik - 3 days ago.
@ phonecall: Carla Lizardo
@ you were depressed: rightnow.
@ you were in the hospital: Few months ago. Went with my Niece.
When/What Comes to Mind When You Hear . . .
@ car: audi
@ murder: The bitch.
@ cape:
@ phone: Bes.
@ shoe: my chucks!
@ fun: Gimmik (:
@ crush: Him (: [hah! almost slipped]
@ music: Life.
@ chalk: *sigh*
@ candy: Yum
Thanks to
April Sanchez (my sitchi's friend) 4 the surveys (:
Who are you? Essa
What is your full name?: Alessandra Martinez Pamandanan
Current age?: 13 and counting.
Current Location?: Computer nook.
Current Grade?: Incoming frosh
Hair color?: brown
Eye Color?: brown
Is your hair dyed?: Nah, i don't approve of it. I think it makes people look CHEAP.
Are you single?: Yup.
Are you straight, bi or a lesbian?: Straight
How tall are you?: somewhere on 5'2, 5'3, 5'4
How much do you weigh?: 102 lbs. (big fat dude
What is your shoe size?: 8 (gigantic hobbit's feet
What is your shirt size?: M (:
Do you wear turtle necks?: Yes.
Do you wear skirts?: Only in sch.
Do you wear cloggs?: Cloggs are those shoes that are like the spice girls's right? nah. I don't even wear heels, Nor leather. I only wear chucks (:
Do you wear toe socks?: No.
Ae your ears pierced?: Yes. 2pairs on each ear and an extra one on the cartiligenous part of my ear.
Are your nose pierced?: No (i wanna pierce it though
Do you have anything else pierced on your body besides nose or ears?: No (i wanna pierce my navel though (:
If you answered yes to the above question, what is it?:
Do you drink?: Sometimes
Do you smoke cigarrettes? I quit.
Do you smoke pot? No.
Do you do drugs?: No. (have no intentions of
Have you ever held hands with someone?: doh
Have you ever hugged someone?: doh again
Have you ever kissed someone?: doh again, again
Have you ever given someone a hickey?: hah.
have you ever been in a fight (words only)?: *looks at all her friends* *smiles* wuddya think? (I'm considered a war freak. Not only Physically, Mentally too! Oh and yeah...I've thrown a glass on a friends face.
Have you ever been in a fight (with physical fighting)?: *bigger smile* <3 fights yup! always.
have you ever been badly burned?: Yeah.
Have you ever broken any bones, if so which ones?: Skull (:
Have you ever been in the hospital?: doh again, again, again. Where'd you think I was born? On a shoe? And I believe i have just finished stating that I have broken my Skull once.
Have you ever gotten detention?: *big big big smile* That's considered my classroom (: Literlly... I'm always sent there. Sometimes I do bad things, Sometimes im blamed and sometimes my teacher's just pissed and wants to take it out on someone *points at herself*
Have you ever skipped a class? Or a whole day of school?: *laugh* o0. (:
Have you ever been suspended?: never...Thank God!
Have you ever been expelled?: never...Thank God!
What's the lowest grade you've ever gotten on your report card?: 78? haha..In Personal Development (:
What's the highest grade you've ever gotten on your report card?: 94! (: [perfect on music only though! haha.
What were your SAT scores?: I didn't get them.
Are you going to college?: Yup.
If yes, what college are you going to/ what college do you want to go to?: ATENEO. (: honestly, I wanna study in the states. :|
What would be your major?: Journ or Psyche [I only live once...I want to atleast play with people's minds (: *evil grin*
How many people are on your buddy list?: What list? I'm guessing.... A LOT? 113 on my YM list (: 486 i think on my friendster. 52 on my myspace. And hell, i have many lists! so im not gonna say the others...
How many people are in your phonebook?: too ignorant to know.
What kind of music do you listen to?: Rock. Alternative. Acoustic. Trance. Chillout. House. [Rock, Pop, Country= I don't consider them music...They suck] I listen to Jazz and RnB occasionally. [seriously] and some rap.
How many downloaded Mp3s are currently on your computer?: More than 5000 also on my kazaa.
Do you think music downloading should be illegal?: No!
A - Age: 13
B - Birthday: July 1
C - Crushes: bsta! dme nyan (:
D - Dessert of choice: ICE CREAM and CAKE. (:
E - Easiest person to talk to: my sibs and some really lose friends (: [all of my friends are close to me, so I guess all of them ü]
F - Favorite song at the moment: A Lot!
G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: WORMS (:
H - Hometown: P.I.//Frsico and L.A.
I - Instruments: Can play the drums, The electric guitar and the acoustic guitar (:
K - Kids: None.
L - Longest car/train ride ever: 8 hours - from frisco to l.a.
M - Mom's name: Grace
N - Number of siblings: 7 (:
P - Phobia[s]: Algiophobic
Q - Favorite Expression: "How you doin?" haha. Not sure if its an expression though (:
R - Reasons to smile: My Niece, My friends, My sibs and My rents (:
S - Song you sang last: Drive - Incubus
T - Time you wake up: 12:30p - 4p (:
U - Unknown fact about me: I'm insanely wierd. (ok a lot of people actually know that) heh,go figure (:
V - Vegetable you hate:
W - Worst habit: I'm pessimistic :|
X - X-rated you’ve watched: X-rated? Define x-rated... I don't watch porn :) I'm a clean clean kiddo.
Y - Yummy food: anything edible (:
Z - Zodiac sign: Cancer
currently listening to:
Drive-Incubus
check out
pakner's new template:)
hm..so yeah...another boring day. God i think im gonna take a shower just to get the heat of me (: so i'll get back after my bath (:
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
i hurt: emotionally
i love: no one/nothing right now.
i fear: nothing.
i hope: to understand it all one day
i feel alone: right now.
i listen: to no one.
i taste: the misfortunes of life.
i remember: the past...
i hide: all the pain inside.
i pray: to god.
i walk: with pain. and alone.
i drive: everyone and myself crazy.
i play: with people's mind, heh.
i feel: the pangs of hurt.
i know: that life's a bitch.
i dream: bog.
i have: a shattered heart…
i need: strength..
i live: to die.
i crave: for him.....
i wont: fall inlove anymore.
i pretend: that everything’s ok.
i smile: at the thought .
i cant: keep on living like this.
i laugh: for the sake of laughing.
i wish: i would’ve known better.
[1] if there was one person you wanted to spend
the rest of your life with... who would it be?
why?
+ him or him..u both knoe hu u r...im so torn...
because with THEM..i learned how to love...
[2] if the one you love loves someone else, what
would you do?
+ cry. Sulk & then let him go.
+ I’m not going to be a hypocrite by saying in a
snap a big congratulations will come out of my
mouth. That would be impossible. I would only be
lying to myself. However, I will walk away & wish
him all the happiness & good luck.
+ He was never mine in the first place so i have
no right to be jealous...
[3] what was the biggest mistake you have done?
(in terms of loving)
+I blinded myself...I shielded myself from others.
[4] if you could turn back time, what would you
have done?
+ Nothing. Because of my past, I walk before my
future.
[5] if you like someone right now.. what is it in
him/her that made you fall?
+ Something...I just can't keep my finger on
it...*thinks*
[6] would you consider yourself lucky at this
point because of someone?
+ I can't say yes,but I can't say no.
[7] how far are you willing to go for your loved
one?
+ God knows.
+I would cross the widest dessert. I would swim
the deepest sea. I would climb the highest
mountain. I would die on bended knee just so that
i could have one more sight of the beautiful
creature that has touched my life.
[8] what is the greatest sacrifice you have done
for love?
+ God knows.
+ I'm just glad that what i gave up, is still
there;)
[9] who is the person you would call 'my life'
right now?
+Hm...Bes//Katie//MyFriends//Him//Him//Kim//Gonong
//Ryan//Paulo//John//Kev0//matt//angelic//MyFam
//Yuya//if i forgot to mention u..u knoe hu u r:)
U did mke a difference=)
[10] do you believe in love at first sight?
+ NO...I believein taking a deeper look.
[11] if you have a best friend in the opposite
sex, why of all did you pick him/her?
+ They were one of a kind...
[12] what if you fell in love with your best
friend, would you tell him/her?
+ I wouldn't fall for them...trust me! i knoe...
[13] destiny or magic?
+ both!
[14] how can you let go of someone that wasn't
yours form the start?!
+ you can’t lose someone you never had. You can
however, let go of the feeling you had towards
this person. The same answer doesn’t necessarily
work for everyone, but universal to that - it’s
all in a matter of good time. As cliché as this
statement is, TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS.
Its like a getting to know me thing.
name: alessandra martinez pamandanan
nickname: es,ess,lessa,les,alessa,ale
age: 13 and counting
school: Operation Brotherhood Montessori Center Inc. (OBMCI-damn bastard sch)
favorite color: purple,black,white,whitegold
favorite #: 1
favorite fud: i eat anything edible.heh.go figure
favorite movie: dmi eh:)
favorite singer: elvis presley,jason mraz and john mayer
first love: :)
first kiss: hehe...truth or dare...FRIENDS
first date: i dont go on romantic dates..heck, i don't even think i've been to one i considered a date!
tell something bout yourself: you know who i am, dont judge me. A book cannot always be told by its cover.
I am: Alessandra Martinez Pamandanan
I think: of pain and misery.
I know: nothing
I want: a lot of things i may never have.
I have:nothing
I wish: for things to happen to me.
I feel: lonely
I love: No one.
I hate: No one
I fear: I fear nothing
I hear: silence (on rotation: man in the mirror-micheal jackson [what d'you care? i luv this songs specially tuck anderes' version])
I seek: for answers
I regret: nothing
I always crave for: happiness
I always: read.
I never: pretend.
I am not: satisfied.
I cannot: Open up to people.
I fight: for strength.
I confuse: the world.
I need: a lot of things.
I dance: in front of the mirror.
I sing: to myself.
I cry: always.
I should: not shame.
I am happy: never.
I am currently: sad.
heh.ü.im in a taking a pic mood.ü. whaha check these pix out.
check them sa pbase. AHAHAHAHA.
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Gimik Night with the kada.
Saturday:
It was Kuri's party! gimmik night (: So I went to Pearl Drive and met up with Shar, Kuri, Yssa, and Kei. We were the first one's to arrive. We went up to Honjin (kuri's jap resto) and waited for the others there. Soon to follow was Camille! (CamCamCam. Can't wait for your party!). After Cam was ofcourse the boys... John, Niko, and Aj. I got to sit with them (tsktsk, one of the boys talaga) So as expected, our table was really noisy (:
When everybody was done eating, Bes soon followed! Yeah, so Niko was in total awe. Ofcourse, bes got mad at Niko, so we seperated. The girls (EXCLUDING
MOI) went to use the net and the boys and I played billiards at Johnny's! Oh yeah, baby! BILLIARDS.
There were these guys (real cute guys, that is! around 17) that played billiards right next to our pool table (talk about nagpapapansin!) so Niko and I were like
Ha, ha! OK, whatever. After playing pool we went to check if the girls were done; they weren't yet so we went back to play pool. The guy's were still there and really watching us play. One of the guys took notice that I was looking at their direction and started to dance to Maroon 5's Harder to breathe playing on the television. I'm like "taina niko...lng mgwa sa buhay oh!" and we were all literally laughing.
Ofcourse at around 11pm, DUDDY AJ had to go. So it was just Niko, John, and Myself. We were paying for the pool table when one of the guys (a real cute one!) stood beside me. They seemed to have finished playing pool as well. As I was paying the cashier was wondering why I was still there. He politely told me that my "friend" had already paid for our table. As much as I wanted to laugh, I didn't, because one of the guys were still there beside me. So the guy, playing cool I presume, just smiled and out of politness, I smiled back. Around 11:30 we went back to the net cafe and came to find that the girls weren't there. So we decide to lounge about on the sidewalks when kendrick (Sharah's brother) approached and asked if we wanted yosi. Obviously John and niko got a stick and Kendrick was like "kumuha ka na". I wanted to get one but I just refused."Are you sure?", kendrick asked still holding out the Marlboro Lights, and I was like "Yeah, I'm sure." He went back to Benny & Steph.
Since Kuri had to go at around 12am. Niko, John, Bes, Keiko and I headed to bes's place. Ofcourse as always, kate called and said she was going to follow. Kate was dropped off by her rents at Maria's place and we decide to swim. After awhile, Richard went up. We were all so shocked. Around 2a, Niko and John had to leave, so it was just me and the girls. Kate and I felt like staying up and talking the whole night and Richard kept us company.
Sunday:
The driver fetched me and Kit after lunch and Kit slept at my house that sunday night (: We actually didn't sleep as well. We stayed up watching the whole season of Smallville. Yes, we do share the same interest in Tom Welling (:
xplain wats luv 4 u..
1. …d reason 4 living -->annjo mallari
2. …like a river that flows --> Jerome diaz
3. …all Cupid’s doing! -->mike
4. …a sucker! Once u’r in, u’r in too deep &
der’s no goin out! -->sUcKeD
5. …as if u didn’t know!!! -->dolly pena
6. …blind! -->Cyclopes
7. …not blind. It sees more, not less. --
>weena daluslos
8. …a symbol of eternity ---->joy lopez
9. …a affectionate devotion --->cris lu
10. …can b false or true ---->jean sy
11. …unreasonable attraction --->jake paul
12. …a boy-and-a-girl relationship! --->ll
cool j
13. (4 d PLAYBOYZ outder) luv is not a
plaything. Don’t mess w/ it!! --->carla bugayo
14. …is not a game to be played but a game to
be won. ----->zey
15. …is a totally inexplicable phenomenon
that sneaks up on people without their
cognizance. They just realize it when everything
would be looking and feeling different to them,
like all is bright and beautiful. It’s a cornball
thing though. =>jAps G.<=
16. a meaningfull devotion between two
people..that everytime you see that person you're
inlove with..nothing else in this world matters...
Its a feeling that no one else in this world
could ever hold back...its a pattern done
perfectly.*sigh* 89*no holding back*89 >essa p.<
Saturday, April 17, 2004
Happy Birthday you Biatch :DI hope I get to republish this entry because if I don't, the world will come crashing down. *witched-out laugther* I'm gonna try to keep it cool though, for the sake of myself and those around me...
Yup its kuri's big day today! (happy birthday kuri! i miss you hoe!) She's gonna have her party at pearl drive... atleast i have an excuse to get out of the house,right? ah well..she's my kabarkada anyways...so anyways im trying to get a hold of bes since i wanna go to her house first before we head to kuri's party...but,she isn't replying... damn!...
hay grabe..i miss school *shivers* can you belive it's me saying that? i know! surreal, huh? and ironic too! but seriously....coz now that im a freshman..its feels damn good! i can't wait til the aquaintance party where everybody will get to meet us! the new batch! its gonna be one hell of a party:) heh...the inc. seniors are great... i know..cos ate jae's one of them:) and then the inc. juniors are gonna be awesome too! the inc. sophomores are nice and the freshmen...are too...what's the word? HYPER! hehe..so..i dunno...i'll tell you about it when it happens:) for now..im gonna go try and fix this blogger of mine...
